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Poison Heart
My heart hurts right now, I just can't make it go away.  I can help other people and make them feel better but my own heart still hurts.  It feels like it's burning.  An unquenchable fire in my chest eating me alive from the inside.  I can never have the one I love, and the ones I want and love never want me back.  But I'm a fool who can't help feeling that way.
Whenever someone needs help, when they are hurting and feel bad, I'm always there.  I imagine it like I'm sucking out the poison when I talk to them, I take it all out and they're all better again.  Unfortunantly I've taken in all the poison now, and it's me who hurts instead.  But I don't show it, never can, cause if I do they'll stop coming to me for help, and they'll end up staying hurt, I can't do that.  And the poison never kills me, never is able to stop me.  It hurts like hell and only stirs up the burning inside, but I'd
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Waking Up - An Exercise
My mind is suddenly ripped from it's dreaming to the sun exploding into my room, blinding my eyes and I try to adjust from the sheer darkness of my mind's eye to the brilliant ray of light screaming their way into my retinas. A battle of wills ensues, my brain, in all its infinite wisdom is telling my body that it must move. It sends messengers along the whole nervous system with the urgent news that they must begin firing and moving. That there is simply no option to not comply. The body however has a mind of its own. Like a peaceful protest against crimes against human rights it refuses, it stays put, giving an indignant finger to the wills and purpose of the brain. This monstrous beast of flesh and muscle has finally done what I'd always feared, it has realized that it does not need to bend to the will of some small fragile gray matter that does nothing but send out commands. It has taken on a will of it's own, and it has, by simply doing nothing, shown that it is now it's own maste
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Literature
The Hollow Man - Take 2
A tiny hole in the heart
It expands, dissolving it away
feasting upon the blood that flows through my veins
relishing in it, drinking it down
the heart is devoured and gone
but the hunger is not quenched
as you continue to live somehow
you are eaten from the inside
slow torture as your organs are eaten away
the pain doesn't go away, but it doesn't take over
it just eats away, in the background
tiny jabs of hurt every so often to bring you back
the emptiness inside grows
when everything is gone, you hope it is over
but it attacks your brain
destroying it all but the memories
the memories are left intact, while all other is lost
The pain lives inside you, keeping you alive
not allowing you to forget the memories
you are forced to go on, as a hollow shell
filled with nothing but the pain and memories
No one can help you, no one knows your suffering
one thought constantly on your mind,
brought back and dangled in front of you whenever you let your mind wander
each time the pain grows when
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Julian Lopez
Artist | Hobbyist | Photography
United States
Current Residence: Torrance, CA
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Techno, R&B (but I like all kinds)
Favourite photographer: Me
Favourite style of art: Anime
Operating System: Windows XP Home Edition
MP3 player of choice: Winamp 5
Shell of choice: Explorer
Wallpaper of choice: Changes weekly
Skin of choice: "Galaxy" by ~scion2412
Favourite cartoon character: Get Fuzzy - all the characters.
Personal Quote: To Thine Own Self Be True
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luanalani Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2009
Thank you for adding me to your watch list. :heart:
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JBellio Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
woo! thanks for the fav!
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jmanx Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
you're most welcome, your art is incredible and I'm surprised more people haven't caught on and seen your stuff.
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JBellio Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
thanks again man. i really appreciate that
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theoro Featured By Owner May 22, 2009
wow you have 2 websites
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jack788 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2008
Thanks , nice gallery.

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AdamBurn Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
thanks for the watch, much appreciated
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johntisbury Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2008  Professional Photographer
Hi

Thanks for the :+devwatch:

Much appreciated.
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meg-bunnies Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2008
Thanks for the fav!!!
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RollerGalVal Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2008  Professional General Artist
Thanks so much for :+devwatch:
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jmanx Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
No prob ;), had you on my devwatch for your old account and just found out you had switched so I had to make sure I updated it to keep up to date with your stuff! Thanks for the add as well!
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blutengelfinale Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2007
^^ Yeah, I know, but it's still a nice bg..
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brrb Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2007
Hey!
Thank you for the +FAV :+fav:!!!
With:heart:, Brrb!!!
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beyr Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2007
Belated thanks on the commentary! (For Eleanor) And the actual constructive input!
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Rahll Featured By Owner May 13, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the new :+fav: :D
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larkin2 Featured By Owner May 10, 2007
Thanks for watching :)
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sehebre Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2007
you always have to enjoy the end of the storm, right!?
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Rahll Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2007  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a ton for the :+fav: dude, go gummy bears :D
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Audic Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2007
Thank you for the add! :)
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gucken Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2007  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks a lot for the fav =)
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